April 23, 2017

April Showers Bring May Flowers..

At least that's what I hope for.

And no. I'm not speaking literally here. I'm not talking about April's rain and May's flowers and Spring to finally arrive full force.

I'm talking about the messy weather that's been going on inside my head lately.

I won't bore you with the details about my latest, ongoing anxiety battle and quite honestly I don't feel like writing it all out. Instead, let's talk about how anxiety affects us. Our mind and body. I'd love to know that this isn't just me..

"How can I feel so good, so normal one minute and the next I'm a complete mess?

Why does every little ache and pain cause my mind to spiral out of control and settle on the thought that I'm going to die? Any minute now.

Why does my anxiety cause so much body pain anyway?

Should I try medication? Is that the only thing that will help me now?

Medication scares me...

If I try it will I need to be on it for the rest of my life? But if I don't try it...will I be like this for the rest of my life?"

It's safe to say I've taken a beating this past month (well, two months) by my old friend anxiety. I feel like it's consuming me and I have no clue what to do about it. I've been to the doctor a handful of times this month and each time I'm met with the same conclusion. "You need to do something about your anxiety". Each time I'm offered the choice of medication which, I'm beginning to think very strongly about. There are other factors when it comes to me starting medication though so it's not like it can happen just like that.

I don't know...

I'm taking small steps to overcome my anxiety. Having doctors check out my "problem" areas and getting the OK eases my mind for a while. I stopped eating both dairy and gluten (I have sensitivities) and while I still feel anxious I can honestly say my head hasn't felt this clear in a long time. I've read that eating gluten when you have an intolerance to it can cause all sorts of problems for you. Anxiety and depression being a major one. I've only been gluten free for two weeks now so I'll let you know how I feel in another two weeks. I've also been talking things out with my boyfriend and various family members which seems to help a little.

One thing I know for sure is that I will never let anxiety take over completely. No matter how hard it pushes me, I'll push back twice as hard.

Because I'm choosing to believe no matter how many showers I get caught up in....with even the smallest bit of sunshine flowers can't help but push right through the dirt and bloom like they're meant to. 

April 17, 2017

Lux's First Easter

Well Easter came and went didn't it? At least that's how it felt to me. Maybe because we were travelling and we didn't get to have a nice relaxing Easter at home.

This year we decided we would head down to Cape Breton to spend Easter with our families. We spent Easter night and part of the morning at my grandparent's house and then the rest of the morning at Craig's mother's house.

Easter night was terrible, if I'm being completely honest. Every time we travel Lux's schedule ends up all out of whack which leads to an all out of whack Lux. It's like she forgets how to sleep or something so for the duration of the trip she's tired, I'm tired and everyone is cranky.

Even though we were cranky we couldn't let that interfere with Lux celebrating her first Easter!

Since it was her first Easter and she's only ten and a half months the Easter Bunny didn't get her many toys for Easter. Mainly things she "needed". Like a spring coat, a new bathing suit and hat for the beach, socks and a pretty new Easter dress. But the bunny did make sure she received a new book, some Disney dvds, a care bear and her new favourite toy- a ride on Finding Dory train car.

After getting all dolled up and having a mini photoshoot we made our way to Craig's mom's for an easter egg hunt with Lux's cousins.

By the end of the egg hunt and after some playtime, Lux was more than ready to hit the road and start our long journey back home.

I think she had a pretty good first Easter! Next Easter will be more fun though because she'll be a little older and will sort of know what the heck is going on! 

I hope you all had a fantastic Easter! 🐰

April 6, 2017

What Lux Wore | Boho Chick

Let me start this post off by stating how increasingly difficult it is becoming month after month to take decent photos of Lux! She doesn't stand still for more than a second so I have to work with what I can get. I found these pants at Walmart and I thought they were the most adorable pants I've ever seen. *it should be noted that Craig thinks they're hideous.

Initially I picked up this exact top in white to go with these pants but Lux's grandmother picked this one up in pink and seeing as I'm trying to feel all "springy", we went with the pink top!

I love the lace design on this top and the longer ruffle at the back just adds that little baby girl touch. The pants are a little loose fitting because we bought them (mostly) to go over her legs while they were bandaged so she has some wiggle room to grow into them which means she can wear these for a long time....sorry Craig. (😏)

HAVANA TOP (shows only in white)